{"id":401,"date":"2026-07-10T07:08:23","date_gmt":"2026-07-10T07:08:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/?page_id=401"},"modified":"2026-07-10T11:46:41","modified_gmt":"2026-07-10T11:46:41","slug":"my-childhood","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/?page_id=401","title":{"rendered":"My Childhood"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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“My childhood not complicated, simple but still hurts”<\/mark><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

My father was bipolar, which was not well known in the years end seventeens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was part as a warm and happy family, but at the age between four and five things did change.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My dad starting gambling again which create a lot of friction between my parents. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The warm and happy family started to collapse and it did get worse when dad started having bipolar episodes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Things did go wrong when it happened on regular base, my sister and I where locked up in the large bedroom. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When my father had is episodes or mood swing I still remember him listening to music, while being singing in a melancholic way, crying and of course drinking.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I didn’t experience much about it, I was only five and was still not developed. It’s like not being able to have feelings at that time I guess.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Back to the large bed room, dough it became more like a closet to avoid the noise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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“My schooltime”<\/mark><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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There is nothing to tell about my schooltime, I didn’t fit in at all and my anxiety levels keeps rising and it became impossible to go to school. I past a lot with my nanny, a safe zone just like just like the large bed room. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sins things didn’t get better it was time for a child psychiatrist, separate consultations first me and than my mother. She asked me why I could not make friends at school, the only question she asked me and I burst into tears. I still see that as cruel way to confront a kid that way. It was my mother turn, very simple :<\/p>\n\n\n\n

” It’s not an environment to raise kids”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

” Your son feels guilty for the friction between parents”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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“I still feel guilty”<\/mark><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

My father was bipolar, which was not well known in the years end seventeens. I was part as a warm and happy family, but at the age between four and five things did change. My dad starting gambling again which create a lot of friction between my parents. The warm and happy family started to […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-401","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/401","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=401"}],"version-history":[{"count":33,"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/401\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":464,"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/401\/revisions\/464"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lysithea.be\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=401"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}